Memories and Observations

Its Sunday, afternoon, early evening to be precise and another weekend is coming to an end. Remember when we were kids that feeling in your stomach on a Friday afternoon at oh say 3 30 waiting for the final bell, for school to be over for the crush of bodies as we all pushed our way out of the gates and to the freedom that was Saturday and Sunday. I cant help but ask, where has that gone. Is it the same for the young people of today and has the change taken place because I have gotten older. I had so many hopes and dreams when i was in the first flush of youth. All i wanted was to finish school, to begin my dream career,well no thats not strictly true. I wanted a job. I wanted money so i could buy the latest "records" as they were back then, the latest clothes and perfumes, have my hair styled and paint my face exactly as the models did in the magazines. I wanted to experience the dizzy rush of the alcohol buzz. I wanted to dance under the disco ball in the Television Club or Sloopys. I wanted my first kiss. Oh I got it all everything I wanted but looking back and with the benefit of age and hind sight my dream was my nightmare waiting to begin. All the things I believed i wanted and needed were just the tools i used to totally mess up what could have been a decent life. I had the looks, or so i am told and the brains and the ambition and unfortunately i always made it my business to get what i aimed for. I aimed for the wrong things. I cant help asking how would my life have turned out if I had aimed for the moon instead of the stars.